Jesus in You

Where are You taking me, Lord?

- To a place where the angels sing and and where every particle that does not belong to Me is being singed; Jesus in you will lead you there.

I want to come and see You as You really are, Lord, not as what I've made You to be; let my eyes become adjusted to Your beauty... I want to be reminded of the fact that You have called me to eternal life.
What can I say? 'Thank You' are all the words I've got, but they do not come close to describing the swinging of my heart as I train my gaze to behold this horizon...

Through a tunnel I run, towards the light. As I emerge I enter into a thick white fog - the cloud of glory!! The air is filled with angels, and I am drawn into their song, and must sing at the top of my voice, 'Holy, holy, holy God!'
I can see a bridge, leading even deeper into this foggy sea of eternity. At the end of it, there are wide and huge steps, covered in the most sparkling and beautiful jewels and precious stones, all framed in pure gold.
I am terrified of stepping closer, but at the same time filled with an overpowering longing to see what is at the top.

The latter gets the better of me, so I take the first step. The noise and music and voices grow so loud, they are almost deafening. They seem to seep through my very being...
On the second step, the light becomes so glistening that I am almost blinded by it. It is white and shiny and radiant, brighter than anything I've ever seen.
I take the third step, which again is covered in jewels and precious stones and gold, and I can see the shape of feet. Oh the fear and longing to come closer!!
Another step, the fourth one. I look up again and am overwhelmed. Three people are sitting on a throne, all spinning and twirling around each other so that they look like one. And they are laughing with pure joy! It is the most delightful and carefree laughter, that gives you no choice but to join in, so I laugh with them and the joy is almost tangible. At the same time, I am aware that I have never in my life seen anything more holy and worthy and beautiful and majestic...
I dare to go another step, even though my knees are shaking now.
And then the Trinity is looking at me. A gaze that cuts through my innermost being. He knows everything - my past, my present, my future. Evert second of every day is known by Him. Shame is almost taking me down, however, something seems to hold me, like a frame that supports - oh yes, I remember... Jesus in me...

Drawn by this gaze of the Most High I venture one step closer. This sixth step is no longer made of gold, but of something even more beautiful, almost translucent.
And then I see a hand. The King of Kings, Maker of the Universe, is offering me His hand! Is this really happening? I remember all those moments in which His promises seemed so close and real, when He seemed near. It is actually true... and then - oh... my name is engraved in this hand. There it is, LENA, my very own name!
Tears run down my face, but they dry before they hit the ground.
Everything, everything, everything is true...
On my face, on the ground of translucent gold I lie before the throne of my King and Saviour, the One Who Loves Me Most. What my words cannot express, every cell of my body must display - 'I am Yours and there is nowhere I'd rather be!'

There is one more, the seventh step. However, it is not yet meant for me. But when the day of the Joy of Joys comes, I know who is waiting there for me...